Overcoming Struggles...

Well, today definitely had it's fair share of struggles... the good news is that it ended much better than I thought it would. I started the morning off HONG-RY!!! Seriously, I felt like I was starving (even though I know that would be impossible with the amount of body fat I'm carrying around...lol)...I just woke up with the empty, rumbling stomach feeling. My normal breakfast did not sound good, so I thought about going to Subway to get one of those new breakfast flatbreads. After some contemplating, I chose to just eat my Michaelina's breakfast muffin (which has about half the calories.) Good choice, right? Wrong. I wasn't satisfied...at all. So, the snacking began. First it was a bag of 100 calorie popcorn, then a few popchips...then a Jell-o mousse / pudding thingy...then finally, it was time for lunch, where I did make the trip to subway. I got a flatbread sandwich with turkey and veggies, but decided to add the cheese...it's only 50 extra calories though, so no biggie -- no biggie if I didn't feel like eating everything in sight!!! After lunch I went back to the Popchips and had about 3/4 of a serving...a little later, I had another mousse thingy...then I had a few mini cookies that have been hanging out in our break room -- they're from Germany, I think...all the info looks like it's in German to me, so who knows what the calorie count was for those...they are really small though (like very small bite-size cookies), and I only had three, so maybe they weren't so bad. Anyways, after that I found some fruit snacks hiding in my desk and finished what was left of those. Ugh....  I know that most of what I ate wasn't necessarily "bad" food, but it's all about quantity, and my quantity of food today was way over what it should be.

It didn't stop there either. When I got home from work, I realized that I needed to go to the grocery store. I hate to grocery shop while hungry (yes, at that point I still felt hungry...) so I decided to have another snack. I heated up some Lean Cuisine spring rolls (200 cals) and then took off to the store to get a few things. For dinner I made some whole grain pasta with chicken breast, sun-dried tomatoes, spinach, goat cheese and onions in a reduced balsamic sauce. It was delicious...so delicious that I had to have TWO servings!!! Aggghhhhhh! What was wrong with me??? Not to mention that I completely forgot to measure out my dry pasta by servings so I could figure out the calorie content.

MY STOMACH WANTED ALL THIS JUNK...

Okay, so after Eat-Fest 2011, I decided to get my butt to the gym. Starting my workout was tough -- I'm sure I have the carb-overload to thank for that. I felt like I could feel all the crap I ate today just bouncing around in my stomach...I felt tired and sluggish and thought I would never get through the hour workout I had planned. I was watching The Biggest Loser and started to really get into it. Before I knew it, 30 minutes had passed and I was feeling good. That crappy feeling had gone away and I got a burst of energy. I finished watching the show and had completed 50 minutes on the elliptical. After that, I did several sets of lunges and squats and also did some upper body strength training. I worked up a good sweat and finished my workout in about an hour and 15 minutes.

Even though my eating was a little out of control today, I am proud of myself for not just giving in completely. I could have easily went even more overboard than I did...those Cheetos in the vending machine were screaming at me today!!! I snacked way too much, but still stuck to my healthy foods when doing so....and, most importantly, I didn't stay on the couch tonight like I wanted to. I made myself get up and go to the gym! I made myself finish my workout and pushed myself to work hard during it! So, all in all, I pretty proud of myself today and I feel like this little bump in the road is only going to make me stronger! :)